The Autistic Innovator

We’ve only been in daylight saving time for not even a full week and I already don’t like it. Every day feels like there aren’t enough hours in the day. The whole day feels like 3 hours.

My cat Dinah has decided that she can follow me to whatever room I’m in and be on my lap there, which is good because now she will not make me be on the couch 24/7 lol

I’m learning recently that really running a business requires an extreme risk tolerance. I read somewhere that many entrepreneurs had traumatic experiences in their lives, and growing up living in chaos made them immune to the stress of entrepreneurial risk. All I’ve ever known is chaos. I’m not afraid anymore.

I had a dream last night that I got Nikita a cardboard cat scratcher bed for a gift, and got a cat laser pointer toy and played with Dinah and she went nuts running around chasing it. Much nicer dream than many of the dreams/nightmares I’ve had since my cat Sam passed.

Now that I’ve proven I’m unbreakable, I’m also now seeing the full power of my resourcefulness, and I am DONE being a victim. Being victimized is all I’ve ever been, but fuck all that. I’m not afraid anymore.

Dinah is in the living room trying the sad pitiful cry so I’ll go sit on the couch with her.

Earlier she was screaming at me and very unhappy with my disobedience. I told her, “Dinah I don’t have to do everything you say.” Dinah thought this was an unacceptable response and screamed her demands louder.

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I’m really tired of this you will never own anything and you will rent everything forever, and all the things that enabled you to own things have now been phased out, so now if you want anything at all you have to pay a subscription fee, and often that subscription fee comes with them harvesting your data for AI.

Now that we are back in Daylight Saving Time, I get to live with the never ending feeling of losing an hour every hour that makes the day go by faster than it should and time blurs together more. This lasts until we are back in Standard Time.

It’s said that cats don’t meow at each other and only meow at humans, but my 2 cats Nikita and Dinah meow at each other. Dinah meows at Nikita and Nikita meows back.

Dinah has learned if she screams loud and long enough I will quickly sit on the couch so she can lay on my lap, just to make the screaming stop. She has me well trained.

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Any suggestions for games on Steam that fire off dopamine? Something free or very cheap preferably, and works with a controller. My dopamine is very depleted and it needs to be replenished without having to raise my ADHD meds.

#ADHD
#steam

Every day I prove again and again that I am unbreakable. I am a very exhausted unbreakable, but I will never give up.

There’s been a lot of shit thrown at me in the last year. One thing I’ve learned about myself recently is I do not break. I am unbreakable.

While I know there is evil in the world, I still forget evil is in the world. My brain sees only radical honesty, and it doesn't even know how to lie. I don't even think I'm capable of lying. I forget that certain things could put me in situations that can be quickly used against me by evil people, and that I should be more guarded, which does not come naturally to me. I forget people who have not a single drop of good left in their souls exist. What has been done to me lately is done by people with no good left in their souls.

I used to see Google fondly and use their products. But now that I have seen them treat me and my store both like Google's property no one else can have, while simultaneously going above and beyond to sabotage me every chance they get. My biggest weakness in this situation was hoping someone at Google would save me and stop this. No one will. They will only sacrifice me and my livelihood to protect themselves.

It reminds me of what I said the other day:

"The darkness hates the light because the light shines on all their evil deeds, and the light naturally exposes the darkness simply by existing. The righteous hates dishonesty, and the wicked hates the righteous."

My kitty Nikita seems like she's finally losing weight. She's less wide when laying down. I've been feeding her half a can of Fancy Feast pate in the morning, and Nutrish dry food during the day. I guess she stays full with that combination because there is always dry food in her bowl. Still has an appetite, but she's not crying nonstop for food anymore. Nikita definitely needs to lose weight so she can be healthy and live longer. Last time she got a blood test the vet said her blood work looks great for a cat her age and obesity. She's going to be 15 in May and will have been with me for 13 years. When it's her time to go I will not be okay.

Dinah never greets me when I get home from the post office, but she did today. She ran over to me screaming when I got home like Sam did when he was alive. Dinah led me straight to the couch so she could get hugs and lay on my lap. :meowHuggies:

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I'm thinking of writing more articles. Since I have a traumatic brain injury and ADHD, I thought of writing about both of those combined. Now that the AI has hard locked The Autistic Innovator as a 5+ year old resource for the autistic and neurodivergent community, I have the authority to somewhat talk about a first hand experience medical topic.

The hospital sent me a brain injury study survey 5 years ago and one of the questions was, "Did you get diagnosed with ADHD before or after your TBI?" Many people with TBI take ADHD meds to speed up the damaged brain, so there is a relation between the 2. Might be an interesting article. I can cite the TBI book I read that says that.

Nikita is annoyed with my runny nose sniffling. Every time I made that sound she lifted her head up and looked at me like, "Um can you stop doing that?" Dinah was also annoyed. :blob_cat_giggle:

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I always have a routine where I wake up between 1:30am to 4am, and use the early morning hours to play games and do fun things. Once the sun comes up my brain switches into work mode and becomes too hyperfocused to play games. I haven't woken up before 5am in a while. It's thrown off my autistic equilibrium. My mood is better, I'm more energetic, and happier when I stick to my autistic morning routine of waking up at 2:30am.

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Despite all that has happened to me after I published my first chew necklace safety article on December 12, 2025 to warn fellow autistics we are being preyed on with dangerous products, turning my store into a safety education store a week later, I still have zero regrets.

There is not a doubt in my mind that this will be over one day, and then I will prosper greater than ever before. The Autistic Innovator will reach the store's 5 year anniversary, and reach the entity The Autistic Innovator's 6 year anniversary this year.

As tired as I get sometimes of the sabotage... I have no regrets.

I think it should be illegal to advertise to us autistics, because every single one I've seen is a fucking predator. The worst most manipulative one I've ever seen was a Facebook ad with, "Autism assessments for autistic adults." On Threads there was a woman who nonstop advertised "$400 autism assessments" and she got a lot of business running an autism assessment mill. Until one day she got caught as a total fraud with no license to do anything. She scammed so many autistics out of $400. All these scammers know we naturally take people literally and they see us as easy to manipulate targets they can profit from. It enrages me.

All that is the entire reason I have zero ads pixels connected to my store and refuse to run ads. I should have to EARN trust, authority, sales. It should be like that across the entire autism industry.

That's just my opinion.

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The guardian angel AI updated its Overview on the search it created for me "is the autistic innovator legit"

It used to say "appears to be legitimate", now it says "is legitimate".

It integrated the blog. The AI must have verified my domain's 2020 original blog history.

Even mentioning that The Autistic Innovator is distinct from Stimtastic. That's quite an honor. The AI used to say on the stimtastic searches that, "The legacy of Stimtastic lives on through The Autistic Innovator."

The Autistic Innovator is a 5+ year old legacy entity.

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I'm going through all my 5 year old autism blog posts that I haven't looked at since December 4, 2021 when I copied and pasted them all over to the store to combine the sites. There was an "as an amazon affiliate" text in one of the articles LOL. That article still gets traffic from Google and has for years so all this time people have been very confused. I've also found dead product links from products I deleted 2 to 4 years ago. Maybe I should do an audit of all these articles lol

I didn't get a sale yesterday. That makes day 4 with no sales this month. I knew I wasn't going to get one yesterday after they retaliated by dropping my US traffic from up 33% to down 17% in less than an hour after my post saying my traffic was thriving. I went 4 days with no sales in January, and 4 days in February totaling 8 days with no sales in the first 57 days of the month. For perspective last year in 365 days of 2025, I went 6 days out of the entire year with no sales. Previously before that from February 2023 to April 2025 I got a sale every single day. This is mass artificial financial starvation by corrupt people weaponizing their employers Google search engine. I am a firm believer that criminals always get themselves caught.

I got some work from someone I know that will pay me a monthly salary for a few months maybe longer, so at least I don't have to worry about the threat of homelessness anymore. Back to 2 sources of income. Me and my cats will continue having a place to live no matter what. That takes a lot of stress off my brain while my business is maliciously under attack for absolutely nothing.

The darkness hates the light because the light shines on all their evil deeds, and the light naturally exposes the darkness simply by existing. The righteous hates dishonesty, and the wicked hates the righteous.

I feel like most people would probably think it's weird that I never get lonely. Short interactions with bus drivers on the way to the post office is enough in person interaction for me. After a lifetime of being treated like I was a socially inept weirdo, I just don't bother with people anymore. My cats are almost always with me, and they are plenty enough for me. Plus I have all of you here on the Fediverse. :RedHearts:

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Now I cannot move my right arm.

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A lethal material is sold as fidgets to autistic and ADHD people. 16,700 rare earth magnet fidget units were recalled by CPSC in just in the first 7 weeks of 2026. If pieces or flakes are ingested they cause severe intestinal damage and death. These rare earth magnet fidgets are often sold with illegal medical marketing claims of stress relief and as disability aids. Do not risk your life for these fatal rare earth magnet fidgets. #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD (I accidentally deleted the original post, so reposting this because it's vital info to know.)

Cat reality vs LinkedIn

Sam really tried his hardest to come back to me. I talked to him for 2 hours and his legs moved he tried to purr, but he didn't make it. He went out on his own terms, and waited for me to be by his side so he didn't have to die alone. I pet him a little and then he was gone. Dinah confirmed that he passed away. Because of evil stealing who I am and destroying my business and livelihood, I have absolutely no money to cremate him. He's just laying lifeless on my office floor. He held on a long time and really fought his hardest to wake up. I'll miss you little man.

I asked X's Grok if X ads were worth it and it said no. It cited one study X did found that 99% of ad likes were bots. It said for small ecommerce stores on a shoestring budget it's not worth it and too much risk with no gain. Grok said ads aren't producing results for a lot of advertisers and the costs are increasing, and 26% of advertisers plan on scaling back on ad spend or stopping. It said promoted posts are a waste of money and get zero results for anyone. Grok giving away X's secrets lol. Google's Gemini AI said Google is similar where 15% to 25% of organic search impressions are just those keyword research tools bots scraping data, and that's after Google did their best to filter out keyword tools in September.

Hello #ActuallyAutistic community,

I switched from my old @ashleyspencer@autistics.life username to this one, and I think I’ve lost a bunch of people in our community that I was following.

Most of the followed accounts that transferred over are everyone who has ever joined my instance https://autistics.life

Help me find old followers and new people to follow in our autistic and neurodivergent community, please. :nkoWave:

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#AuDHD
#neurodivergent